Worries

Me and JW went for a beer by the riverside last night, and I bumped into my friend and her on-off boyfriend.
We chatted a lot about travelling, cos she is going with another of our friends in September for 3 months to Thailand, Malaysia and possibly beyond.

I started to feel a little twang of jealousy...( I dont feel good about being envious at all)
I mean she is going sooner than me, and with a girl friend, which would be pretty cool.
And she is covering a lot of the areas we are going, but before us.

And then i snapped out of it and realised the following...

A. I am going for 18 months, maybe more and really investing a lot into this... with a thought in the back of my mind that we'll stay and get jobs, or at least keep travelling. So for us this is serious.

B. Im going with JW which is totally cool, and better than going with a girl friend- because as sad as it sounds he really is my best friend, and the person I like spending time with the most :)
and besides I plan to possibly meet up with them and some other people I know who are travelling if we manage to cross paths.

C. I should be happy for my friend, that she is doing something exciting like me and not be so envious! Its very unhealthy!

I guess im just worried about it actually going ahead smoothly, and worried about having enough money- so when someone is telling me about their well laid plans it worries me and make me envious that they are so sorted and organised!